Dear Lisa 35,
Have the surgery.
Have it.
Get the bloody gall bladder out and get it over with.
Despite all good intentions, you WILL NOT heal it with diet, apple cider vinigar, honey and Reiki.
You dont even know what Reiki is do you ?
Sweetie, have the surgery and save us all a lot of sleepless night and painful days.
Just do it.
Lisa 45
Friday, April 3, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Letter Nine- Mum
Dear Lisa15,
You know how Mum says that she KNOW's when you are lying ?
Well, she does..........
You are so much easier to read than you realise, and despite what you think right now, SHE is not stupid.
Lisa 45
You know how Mum says that she KNOW's when you are lying ?
Well, she does..........
You are so much easier to read than you realise, and despite what you think right now, SHE is not stupid.
Lisa 45
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Letter Eight- hysterectomy
Dear Lisa32,
I know you are suffering.
It's grief Lisa, pure and simple, even though you don't recognise that fact, i assure it's true.
I know you are still of a mind that grief is something felt when death occurs, and death to you means an end to physical life.
You wouldn't believe me if i told you that sometime in the VERY near future, your understanding of so many things is about to burst open, expand like you wouldn't believe possible- but, that is a subject for another time, not now-
Now i want to talk about the feelings you are experiencing since the hysterectomy.
Can i ask you to just know that it was in fact, a life saving surgery?
It saved our life.
It gave our kids a mother for years longer than they would have had you without the surgery.
THAT is what you need to focus on now- that is where you need to direct your energy- the anger you feel about the stolen opportunities is misguided and misdirected.
It also misrepresents you- you are not an angry person.
To be blunt, the only opportunity you missed out on was the opportunity to die at 31 years old.
Its true Lisa, you will know this in time.
I think you know it now.
Basically, you have been given a second chance- two beautiful, healthy kids and a life time to share with them, to be their mother.
Without the surgery, you would have bled out- bled to death- with it, you are alive and i tell you from here, life is about to get better than you ever thought it possible.
I want to tell you that 'anger' is not an answer and to let you know, that soon, you will realise this basic truth and soon you will release it from your life for good.
From here, at Lisa45, there is no more anger, ever- only acceptance, but again, that is for another time.
For now ,know it is as it is meant to be and work towards getting happy again, enjoying Marc and the kids.
'A uterus does not a woman make'
as soon as you let yourself believe that, the pain will stop.
True
love to you, younger me
Lisa 45 xx
I know you are suffering.
It's grief Lisa, pure and simple, even though you don't recognise that fact, i assure it's true.
I know you are still of a mind that grief is something felt when death occurs, and death to you means an end to physical life.
You wouldn't believe me if i told you that sometime in the VERY near future, your understanding of so many things is about to burst open, expand like you wouldn't believe possible- but, that is a subject for another time, not now-
Now i want to talk about the feelings you are experiencing since the hysterectomy.
Can i ask you to just know that it was in fact, a life saving surgery?
It saved our life.
It gave our kids a mother for years longer than they would have had you without the surgery.
THAT is what you need to focus on now- that is where you need to direct your energy- the anger you feel about the stolen opportunities is misguided and misdirected.
It also misrepresents you- you are not an angry person.
To be blunt, the only opportunity you missed out on was the opportunity to die at 31 years old.
Its true Lisa, you will know this in time.
I think you know it now.
Basically, you have been given a second chance- two beautiful, healthy kids and a life time to share with them, to be their mother.
Without the surgery, you would have bled out- bled to death- with it, you are alive and i tell you from here, life is about to get better than you ever thought it possible.
I want to tell you that 'anger' is not an answer and to let you know, that soon, you will realise this basic truth and soon you will release it from your life for good.
From here, at Lisa45, there is no more anger, ever- only acceptance, but again, that is for another time.
For now ,know it is as it is meant to be and work towards getting happy again, enjoying Marc and the kids.
'A uterus does not a woman make'
as soon as you let yourself believe that, the pain will stop.
True
love to you, younger me
Lisa 45 xx
Letter Seven- fear
Dear Lisa7,
Dont be scared.
Tell Mummy what is happening.
PLEASE, tell Mummy.
Lisa 45
Dont be scared.
Tell Mummy what is happening.
PLEASE, tell Mummy.
Lisa 45
Letter Six- Life and Stuff
Dear Lisa21,
As hard as it may be to believe right now, i want to tell you that early mornings ARE the best time of the day.
There is so much you can get done in those hours before the nest springs to life- it truly sets the pace for the rest of the day.
Start a good morning routine NOW.
Get up, get dressed, walk, get busy and do it about 6.30am..........
You can always have a nap later in the day if needed or if not, an early night is a great answer.
BTW- do you know how beautiful you are now? i know you look in the mirror and want to scream, but honestly, you have never been more fresh and alive- the glow about you is amazing.
Dad can see it- it is why he hates you wearing makeup of any kind, because it just takes away from the radiance..........
Be patient with him, Dad; he is the best father in the world and you will know that one day.
He thinks he knows everything because he actually does and though we will never admit that to him, its true- the man is a genius.
Next time you are out shopping, grab a copy of Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility , Emma and Jane Eyre......the first three are by Jane Austin and are classics you really need to read- the last one is by Charlotte Bronte- another literary classic.
They are hard going and knowing you, you will give up a few times, but i tell you Lisa, persistence will be so rewarding.
Put the bible away for now sweetie, its making you pig headed and arrogant- it is also allowing you to develop a judgemental streak that will be hard to kick.
Also,on the subject of books, you really don't need to read 'My Mother, My Self' by Nancy Friday.
There is nothing wrong with Mum and nothing wrong with you- time will put it in perspective.
For now, RESPECT your parents- the rest will fall into place and PLEASE keep recording your 'esp' moments- i know they are a secret but they wont always be and so much is happening right now.
The answers you seek are not in the Bible- put it away for now.
Will write again soon
Lisa45
PS...........Woollie needs to see a vet- now would be a good time xx
As hard as it may be to believe right now, i want to tell you that early mornings ARE the best time of the day.
There is so much you can get done in those hours before the nest springs to life- it truly sets the pace for the rest of the day.
Start a good morning routine NOW.
Get up, get dressed, walk, get busy and do it about 6.30am..........
You can always have a nap later in the day if needed or if not, an early night is a great answer.
BTW- do you know how beautiful you are now? i know you look in the mirror and want to scream, but honestly, you have never been more fresh and alive- the glow about you is amazing.
Dad can see it- it is why he hates you wearing makeup of any kind, because it just takes away from the radiance..........
Be patient with him, Dad; he is the best father in the world and you will know that one day.
He thinks he knows everything because he actually does and though we will never admit that to him, its true- the man is a genius.
Next time you are out shopping, grab a copy of Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility , Emma and Jane Eyre......the first three are by Jane Austin and are classics you really need to read- the last one is by Charlotte Bronte- another literary classic.
They are hard going and knowing you, you will give up a few times, but i tell you Lisa, persistence will be so rewarding.
Put the bible away for now sweetie, its making you pig headed and arrogant- it is also allowing you to develop a judgemental streak that will be hard to kick.
Also,on the subject of books, you really don't need to read 'My Mother, My Self' by Nancy Friday.
There is nothing wrong with Mum and nothing wrong with you- time will put it in perspective.
For now, RESPECT your parents- the rest will fall into place and PLEASE keep recording your 'esp' moments- i know they are a secret but they wont always be and so much is happening right now.
The answers you seek are not in the Bible- put it away for now.
Will write again soon
Lisa45
PS...........Woollie needs to see a vet- now would be a good time xx
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Letter Five- Jealousy
Dear Lisa 18,
Jealously is a curse.
It is a clear indication that you feel unworthy or not good enough.
That you place yourself under another, in your own eyes.
Get a handle on it now Lisa or it will run through your life forever.
Start with self love and allow that to be the guide in dealing with this.
jealousy, envy, coveting , what ever you call it- they are all the same- emotions that zap your power and integrity.
I know you will deny it, the feelings of jealousy you have and that is a part of it as well.
Self denial.
Start by becoming aware of this emotion.
Awareness is all it takes to fight it.
Love
Lisa 45
Jealously is a curse.
It is a clear indication that you feel unworthy or not good enough.
That you place yourself under another, in your own eyes.
Get a handle on it now Lisa or it will run through your life forever.
Start with self love and allow that to be the guide in dealing with this.
jealousy, envy, coveting , what ever you call it- they are all the same- emotions that zap your power and integrity.
I know you will deny it, the feelings of jealousy you have and that is a part of it as well.
Self denial.
Start by becoming aware of this emotion.
Awareness is all it takes to fight it.
Love
Lisa 45
letter four - Marriage part one
Dear Lisa23,
I was wanting to share some thoughts on marriage, for despite everything you believe to be true right now, this is something that will be a large part of the future for you.
Contribute to the marriage and be always aware of the role you play within this union.
A central role.
A man is a man, not a woman with a penis- he does not think like a woman, act like her, or react like her- save your self a lot of heart ache and learn this now, early on.
Never argue about money, never.
You are to marry a good man ,Marc, - love him well, tell him so- keep the marriage young and vital.
Never lie- his trust in you is pure.
On this note i tell you to be open, honest and to share the thoughts you have regarding life.
Be a part of his life but not his life and vise versa.
Always, keep your friends- girlfriends are priceless and you must make the time to have lunch or dinner occasionally.
Life doesn't stop because you marry, it alters yes, but doesn't end.
Pursue your interests, keep your friends and know that black days fade to grey very fast if you allow them to.
Ironing undies and hankies is not necessary, however you should always have plenty of fruit in the house.
Make time for dating ( him of course), and say Thank You.
He likes to think he is boss, so allow him this illusion but never bring home a baby chicken without his prior approval.
Talk is important, so is alone time.
For each of you.
Don't fuss about his need to touch base with his parents once or twice a week; it is that sort of loyalty that makes him the husband he is.
Bide your time well my angel and eventually he will bow to pressure and agree to having a dog- however, I'm afraid your days of cat ownership are over when you leave Dads house.
I'm not going to tell you marriage is easy or without ups and downs, but it can be good if you are both pulling in the same direction.
Life will bring you some surprises Lisa- allow yourself the opportunity to grow.
If another man should catch your eye ( or you, his) and this may happen, stop and think hard before making your next move.
Consider the situation from a point of reality rather than fantasy.
Stop.
Think.
Then go home.
Be happy, enjoy the life you have.
love,
Lisa45
Ps- you will be fine, but the snoring never changes- sorry
I was wanting to share some thoughts on marriage, for despite everything you believe to be true right now, this is something that will be a large part of the future for you.
Contribute to the marriage and be always aware of the role you play within this union.
A central role.
A man is a man, not a woman with a penis- he does not think like a woman, act like her, or react like her- save your self a lot of heart ache and learn this now, early on.
Never argue about money, never.
You are to marry a good man ,Marc, - love him well, tell him so- keep the marriage young and vital.
Never lie- his trust in you is pure.
On this note i tell you to be open, honest and to share the thoughts you have regarding life.
Be a part of his life but not his life and vise versa.
Always, keep your friends- girlfriends are priceless and you must make the time to have lunch or dinner occasionally.
Life doesn't stop because you marry, it alters yes, but doesn't end.
Pursue your interests, keep your friends and know that black days fade to grey very fast if you allow them to.
Ironing undies and hankies is not necessary, however you should always have plenty of fruit in the house.
Make time for dating ( him of course), and say Thank You.
He likes to think he is boss, so allow him this illusion but never bring home a baby chicken without his prior approval.
Talk is important, so is alone time.
For each of you.
Don't fuss about his need to touch base with his parents once or twice a week; it is that sort of loyalty that makes him the husband he is.
Bide your time well my angel and eventually he will bow to pressure and agree to having a dog- however, I'm afraid your days of cat ownership are over when you leave Dads house.
I'm not going to tell you marriage is easy or without ups and downs, but it can be good if you are both pulling in the same direction.
Life will bring you some surprises Lisa- allow yourself the opportunity to grow.
If another man should catch your eye ( or you, his) and this may happen, stop and think hard before making your next move.
Consider the situation from a point of reality rather than fantasy.
Stop.
Think.
Then go home.
Be happy, enjoy the life you have.
love,
Lisa45
Ps- you will be fine, but the snoring never changes- sorry
Saturday, February 21, 2009
letter three
Dear Lisa 22,
Why, why, are you going camping ??
You HATE camping !!
I know enough to know that you are doing it to impress Marc, and while it might impress him now, i can assure you it wont impress him so much when, he finds out in a few years time, that your real idea of camping is a 5 star motel with room service.
Sweetheart, be honest about who you are .........
don't add bits and subtract bits to suit him
it gets you no where fast.
be you always
love ,
Lisa 45
Why, why, are you going camping ??
You HATE camping !!
I know enough to know that you are doing it to impress Marc, and while it might impress him now, i can assure you it wont impress him so much when, he finds out in a few years time, that your real idea of camping is a 5 star motel with room service.
Sweetheart, be honest about who you are .........
don't add bits and subtract bits to suit him
it gets you no where fast.
be you always
love ,
Lisa 45
letter two
Dear Lisa,
Despite the fact i know you wont agree, you are looking pretty good my girl.
I know the pressure you feel to try and fit in with the others and i tell you that really, you are just perfect the way you are.
Your hair is a wonderful natural colour and your height is the envy of your friends.
Keep walking, it will help keep you fit and wear those size 12 blue jeans every chance you get.
They look great.
You look great.
Please think twice about letting anyone pluck your eyebrows- Mum is right, they are a beautiful, perfect shape and to alter them is a tragedy.
Spend as much time as you can with Nana over the next year or so, and don't worry too much if you find yourself between jobs in the near future- this is a plan of the universe ( don't roll your eyes) and you will find yourself with much to do in the meantime.
By now you have probably realised that you wont marry David L.
I can promise you something better is in store.
Pay your board to dad on time- you know how he stresses about money and NEVER buy a red car.
Times are changing fast for you Lisa, please take my word that everything will be OK.
Lisa45
PS......the way you say 'garbage' to dad every time he tries to talk to you ?
.......well.................dont...........karma will kick you in the ass when you have a 16 year old son of your own.
Despite the fact i know you wont agree, you are looking pretty good my girl.
I know the pressure you feel to try and fit in with the others and i tell you that really, you are just perfect the way you are.
Your hair is a wonderful natural colour and your height is the envy of your friends.
Keep walking, it will help keep you fit and wear those size 12 blue jeans every chance you get.
They look great.
You look great.
Please think twice about letting anyone pluck your eyebrows- Mum is right, they are a beautiful, perfect shape and to alter them is a tragedy.
Spend as much time as you can with Nana over the next year or so, and don't worry too much if you find yourself between jobs in the near future- this is a plan of the universe ( don't roll your eyes) and you will find yourself with much to do in the meantime.
By now you have probably realised that you wont marry David L.
I can promise you something better is in store.
Pay your board to dad on time- you know how he stresses about money and NEVER buy a red car.
Times are changing fast for you Lisa, please take my word that everything will be OK.
Lisa45
PS......the way you say 'garbage' to dad every time he tries to talk to you ?
.......well.................dont...........karma will kick you in the ass when you have a 16 year old son of your own.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Letter One- Introduction
Letter One- 13/2/2009
I am now at this time, 45 years old whereas you , my dear little Lisa are barely 20.
I am a Mother moving fast into my cronage- you are a maiden, the path ahead is for your choosing.
And so i will write you these letters, each with a certain topic or maybe none at all.
I will share these lessons of my path but will not infringe upon your path, for what you have to experience, I cannot say.
That is your journey- the journey that brings you to me.
I will write to you about life, love, money, success, religion, children, marriage, respnsibility and personal growth.
I will share with you, what i wish i knew as you start out on this journey.
You, to me, are Lil- for in truth, you are still a babe- i can sense your annoyancce at this 'label' and i smile- if only you knew.
(you are also as thin as you are ever going to be, but thats another story )
So here we go little one.
My journey
Your Journey
Our journey
Blessed be
Lisa45
I am now at this time, 45 years old whereas you , my dear little Lisa are barely 20.
I am a Mother moving fast into my cronage- you are a maiden, the path ahead is for your choosing.
And so i will write you these letters, each with a certain topic or maybe none at all.
I will share these lessons of my path but will not infringe upon your path, for what you have to experience, I cannot say.
That is your journey- the journey that brings you to me.
I will write to you about life, love, money, success, religion, children, marriage, respnsibility and personal growth.
I will share with you, what i wish i knew as you start out on this journey.
You, to me, are Lil- for in truth, you are still a babe- i can sense your annoyancce at this 'label' and i smile- if only you knew.
(you are also as thin as you are ever going to be, but thats another story )
So here we go little one.
My journey
Your Journey
Our journey
Blessed be
Lisa45
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